Dear Diary,
It’s time for one of my transparent post. I’ve always gone out of my way to help anyone in need or those who appeared lost and just needed an extra boost. I can’t help that I’m a nurturer and HELPS is my ministry. It’s no secret that I once worked in Corporate America and through DNA I can’t help who God chose as my parents but it’s become very apparent that the perception that others may have of me is probably a made up perception that they created from being Google Stalkers. Yes! I said Google Stalkers which I’m perfectly fine with until your actions begin to trickle over in my actually life. A week or so ago I was lead to make a particular request that has been requested more than once. Perhaps far too many times but the moment was perfect and I went in for the pitch.
Let’s get one thing straight. I have the grace to know when the time is right and this was the perfect opportunity (at least I thought). I was feeling great about my request which isn’t out of the norm based on my blue print that I have created. I thought that this was IT! My request was finally going to be honored only to find out a few days later that it would not be honored and there was a whole bunch of crappy explanations that followed the response. I was very proud of myself because I did not react. I simply stated my claims with the following: value, experience, education, blue print and if I had to pull out references trust me I had them on redial. Now if you know me it takes a lot to upset me or break my spirits if you will and this was one of those moments.
Honestly I was so hurt that I actually cried! Why? Because at that moment I felt like all of my hard work, energy, expertise and creative ideas were not appreciated. If I can be terribly honest it took me a few days to get out of my feelings. I knew that after a few days it would slowly pass and that’s exactly what happened. A week had passed and I felt led to share my experience of getting a series of No’s with my online audience on Facebook. It’s in these transparent moments that we’re able to help someone else. I may post a ton of motivational and inspirational post on my social media outlets but that doesn’t mean that I don’t have my own days when I don’t feel like being the “STRONGEST” one. This past Wednesday I shared the below post with my audience:
#WisdomWednesday Last week was one that taught me a series of life lessons about individual’s character and integrity.
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The definition of character is the mental and moral qualities distinctive to an individual.
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The definition of integrity is the quality of being honest and having strong moral principles; moral uprightness.
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As I received a series of “No’s” I decided to take a step back, reevaluate the situation and my request and ponder on why the decision was made. It all comes back to a persons true character and integrity! I learned that their outer exterior may say one thing but when you dig deep that’s when you reveal their true character and integrity.
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As I begin to pray I soon realized that God was just prepping me for the ABUNDANCE that’s about to OVERFLOW MY LIFE, HOUSE, FAMILY, BUSINESS, SPIRITUALITY & FINANCES. Man can say NO but GOD will ALWAYS SAY YES!
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My father always instilled the following saying into his girls, “We Never Give Up, We Give Out” and as 2018 comes to a rapid close I’ve learned so much that will guide me through a GREAT 2019.
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I’ve never been a quitter and I don’t intend on quitting now. I’m sprinting into my NEXT with a steady obedient pace ordained and guided by GOD!
Fast Forward to a week later when I suddenly felt a flame ignite in my soul that began to drive me to PUSH THROUGH and FORWARD. I still can recall the prophesy that I received from Prophet Todd Hall a little over a year ago. Prophet stated that “I should be glad of who ever hurt me because they brought out my talents”. I didn’t quite understand what that meant at the time but I was sure that God would reveal it to me in his appointed time and on these past weeks I have a great understanding of what God was sharing with me through the Prophet. These past six months have been hell yet I didn’t share it with anyone nor did I allow the situations that were before me prevent me from going about my life as usual. These circumstances and experiences that I have endured have prepared me for my NEXT SEASON. I’M READY!